(minor) surgery soon :(

[ayashi]

I was in a really bad mood earlier but I went to sleep and now I feel a little better... I only slept for a little while. Got up around 6:00 or so, went with mom and Erin to Pittsfield and we got some dinner... as soon as she gets back home from bringing Kay home, we're gonna go grocery shopping so I have some food for this weekend. (my big plan is to get stuff for stir fry so Chris can cook it ;))

I feel like something must be wrong with me the past couple of days. Normally I HATE sleeping in the middle of the day, but now I haven't even been able to help myself and it's happened both days :/ I feel a little stressed out and lonely and bored... so I guess there's not a whole lot else I should expect to happen. Regardless though, I sure feel tired even now. None of the extra sleep I'm getting is helping at all! I just feel so exhausted all the time :\

Worried about my (minor) surgery that I'm going to be having within the week. Getting the mole under my left breast removed. Doctor said it needs to come off asap, because it has potential to develop into cancer (it's pretty big and has been growing like I've said a million times). Couldn't be at a more inconvenient time though! Right before I have to move into the apartment, so I won't be able to help anyone move any of the heavy stuff... because of risks of ripping open stitches, blah blah blah. And of course, the position of the stitches isn't exactly going to be convenient. I'll have to be careful... hopefully sleeping on my stomach won't irritate it, or anything else. It's gonna be with local anesthesia (did I spell that right?) and probably won't take long... the doctor said either I could ask someone to remove the stitches for me, or they could teach me how to do it myself. (haha I'll probably just ask mom to... get those veterinarian skills to work again ;))

So, I hope I don't have any pain at all between now and the surgery, not allowed to use any pain killers (because they thin blood or can make clotting harder or whatever) blah blah blah. Also I'm supposed to avoid garlic, so hopefully nothing I eat is gonna have that in it! I wouldn't really know (well unless it was obvious)...

Anyway, I'm all nervous and stressed and I want to not sleep so damn much. Maybe tomorrow if I'm not too tired I'll see if mom can open up the garage door for me so I can clean up some of the stuff Richie gave me... it's all dusty etc from being in the basement forever. I want to get as much as I can done before my surgery. Don't know when it's going to be yet, they're going to call me with a date. Maybe they already did. I have to check the answering machine. Erg... worry :|

Time to go shopping with mom for fooood.

Comments

[thelastsong.livejournal.com]

They have to put stitches to remove a mole? o_o I got a mole taken off my neck and I was good to go with a bandaid.

[ayashi.livejournal.com]

It's kind of big... and I think they're worried about cancer (not that it probably is since I don't sun bathe or anything...), blah blah, and scarring. I don't know x_o; but yeah, they said there would be stitches... :( my bra is going to have nowhere to go! I'll have to wear something else instead.

[thelastsong.livejournal.com]

Ahh, yeah, I got a pretty wonky scar out of my experience, so maybe it's better to get stitches. x_x;; In any case, I hope all goes well, not that I could forsee anything going wrong with a molectomy. ^_^