"I don't think I've got the stomach to, stomach~" my stupid dinner from last night :(

Happy birthday to nastajus :)

I had weird dreams last night T_T and my tummy says NO to the dinner I had last night T_T damn it.

I hope someone buys milk!

I have my evaluation of my growing freckle thing today, eep! This is the guy I haven't been to before either so I'm a little nervous :( I hope he's nice like Dr. Michaels was! But yeah, since it's been growing ever since I stopped growing (I first noticed it Freshman year, and now it's much bigger than it was before), and it's right along where the bottom of my bra strap goes, it probably needs to be removed. Eep :( I feel a little nervous. It won't be removed for a little while though, this is just the evaluation.

I'm kind of confused because last time someone looked at it they were like "oh it's nice and dark and not a weird color and not a weird shape, it's fine!" and then the other person I saw was all "it's been growing since your freshman year of college? you need to get that removed XO" and grr, now I'm all nervous and stuff :(

Anyway, I'm going to go do something now. I woke up waaayyy too early I was hoping to sleep at least until 9! But instead I woke up at like 7:30 :(

and god, some people need to stop calling for mom >< she's at WORK. and no, I'm not giving you her work number!!

snake!

ahh! I just saw a snake O_O I haven't seen one in so long. They are sooo awesome, but it scared me for a minute because there was this thing slithering through the grass! I was like AHH O_O but then I looked closer and it was this cute little snake! I have no idea what kind, I think it had a black stripe going down its body, but I'm not sure. But it was so tiny :D I was bringing Murphy out to eat, and I put his bowl down and then kind of lost my balance so I had to step out to balance myself, and then I felt this little thing by my foot so I slightly lost my balance again trying not to step on whatever it was, and then the tiny little snake started slithering away really fast! It was so cool :D Sooo tiny. I can be happy about seeing it because snakes here don't scare me, since I know none of them are poisonous, and I think they just have the cutest little faces... I might be pretty typical in that insects and arachnids freak me out, but snakes are so cool!!!

In random news, I love this song, both for the song itself and that I think it's cute that around the first part of my relationship with Chris, we both had this song in our head at the same time when we were going to Franklin to eat breakfast together! Hee :D

(minor) surgery soon :(

I was in a really bad mood earlier but I went to sleep and now I feel a little better... I only slept for a little while. Got up around 6:00 or so, went with mom and Erin to Pittsfield and we got some dinner... as soon as she gets back home from bringing Kay home, we're gonna go grocery shopping so I have some food for this weekend. (my big plan is to get stuff for stir fry so Chris can cook it ;))

I feel like something must be wrong with me the past couple of days. Normally I HATE sleeping in the middle of the day, but now I haven't even been able to help myself and it's happened both days :/ I feel a little stressed out and lonely and bored... so I guess there's not a whole lot else I should expect to happen. Regardless though, I sure feel tired even now. None of the extra sleep I'm getting is helping at all! I just feel so exhausted all the time :\

Worried about my (minor) surgery that I'm going to be having within the week. Getting the mole under my left breast removed. Doctor said it needs to come off asap, because it has potential to develop into cancer (it's pretty big and has been growing like I've said a million times). Couldn't be at a more inconvenient time though! Right before I have to move into the apartment, so I won't be able to help anyone move any of the heavy stuff... because of risks of ripping open stitches, blah blah blah. And of course, the position of the stitches isn't exactly going to be convenient. I'll have to be careful... hopefully sleeping on my stomach won't irritate it, or anything else. It's gonna be with local anesthesia (did I spell that right?) and probably won't take long... the doctor said either I could ask someone to remove the stitches for me, or they could teach me how to do it myself. (haha I'll probably just ask mom to... get those veterinarian skills to work again ;))

So, I hope I don't have any pain at all between now and the surgery, not allowed to use any pain killers (because they thin blood or can make clotting harder or whatever) blah blah blah. Also I'm supposed to avoid garlic, so hopefully nothing I eat is gonna have that in it! I wouldn't really know (well unless it was obvious)...

Anyway, I'm all nervous and stressed and I want to not sleep so damn much. Maybe tomorrow if I'm not too tired I'll see if mom can open up the garage door for me so I can clean up some of the stuff Richie gave me... it's all dusty etc from being in the basement forever. I want to get as much as I can done before my surgery. Don't know when it's going to be yet, they're going to call me with a date. Maybe they already did. I have to check the answering machine. Erg... worry :|

Time to go shopping with mom for fooood.