shocked into silence

so this morning, I woke up and went to tell my mom happy mother's day! but i walked out into the kitchen and mom looked at me and started telling me that dad had called aunt patti and my cousin tina last night (tina lives in CA and my aunt has been there visiting her for a long time). then mom tells me that tina and joe are getting separated! I had no idea what to say. I was a flower girl at their wedding and I was very little... maybe 3 years old? (the priest had said that erin and i were too young to be flower girls since we couldn't just do one thing, distractable.) i'm completely shocked! I had no idea they were having trouble and they JUST had a baby (Abby Rose) a few days before Shealyn (my second niece) was born... so I didn't think they were having problems at all, but turns out it's been going on for over a year and now they're getting separated :( joe is going to north carolina and tina is moving to florida with aunt patti until she finds a place to live, with the kids. she has three of them... danielle (the oldest, around 11 years old) is having a hard time with it of course... she really doesn't want to move because of all her friends. matt (the second child, around 5-7 years old) doesn't even know what's going on, and Abby won't really even have a father :( it's really sad... that must be a horrible and very difficult decision to make. tina and joe met in college around 20 years ago, and they've been together since before i was born i think. i've known joe all my life, it'll be weird to never see him again (since i assume i probably will not be seeing him again). very, very shocking... so this news caused me to completely forget to say happy mother's day to my mom until later after my shower, but wow. i didn't know what to say, i almost still don't. it doesn't make any sense to me but i haven't seen them in a long, long time, ever since they moved out to california, and they didn't start having problems until after that. it's just a big surprise to my whole branch of the family anyway.

long paragraph.. sorry. yesterday i saw shealyn though, in better news. i got to hold her too! she's so tiny and cute :D she's the same size as I was (18") but she weighs about a pound more than I did (since I was premature). Her skin and hair is sooo soft, and she's so cute! and she was smiling at me! :D I didn't get to see Brenna, she was upstairs in the bathtub. I forgot how tiny babies were!

I was on a mission to find Lilly today because she hid from everyone all day yesterday... to assure myself that she hadn't died and no one told me I found her in jim's room but i was on the way out so i could just say hi. but today i saw her and she didn't run away (yay) and she lay down in my lap for a while. but then i had to put sadie outdoors so Lilly couldn't stay put for long.

i guess i don't have much more to write about. last night jared came over and erin and he and i played some soul calibur II and smash bros. jared comes up with some pretty wacky ideas for fun things to do, ie put he, erin and i on a team versus a handicap 9 level 9 kirby. it's pretty safe to say that we got creamed. (we were all handicap 1) it was very fun though and we started lowering kirby's handicap more and more, and his level, i think we could beat a level 5 kirby with a 6 or 7 handicap all right. we tried level 1 kirby with a 9 handicap first but that was too easy because kirby just sat there and on rare occasions would punch randomly. :)

last night went with mom to get jim at work, then drive him back home to shannon's house. got to talk to jim a little bit and he told me he wants me to call him more because he misses me, so i need to get the number up there since i don't know it.

right now i'm just doing laundry and waiting for it to finish, then i'm probably leaving. not sure where chris is or what he's doing, not sure if he's left yet... i know he's not at college yet because he isn't online. maybe i'll call before i leave and see, not sure.

i brought tons of stuff home, so i don't have much at school now besides clothes, my computer, and a couple things for japanese and my other two classes. all my old papers that i want to keep are home, and my roll-y drawer (i'm going to put my alarm clock on my desk i guess, but the roll-y drawer needed to go home, wanted to get as much of the big stuff as possible out so chris and i could fit all our stuff in his car at the end of school.

i have a dentist appointment soon. i am getting these not-braces put in to fix my teeth again since i want them to be fixed (the bottom row is getting fudged up) and it's very strange. they're retainers basically but they're braces...yeah... i don't really know, but they are supposed to do what braces do, but they are removeable. it is crazy crazy but if it fixes my teeth i'm happy, and it doesn't cost THAT much. now i just remember to wear it a lot.

going to get my stuff together now so i can leave once mom is here and my laundry is done drying... most of it i'm not taking back with me, but i overlooked the fact that my jeans were not washed, and they ended up being in the last load, and i really don't have many pairs of good pants without them...